TALKING TO ROSALIE
Sometimes
When I’m waking in the morning
For just a few seconds
I don’t know that you’re gone
I hear the birds sing
I reach out to hold you
Then memory wipes you away
And I wrestle with knowing
That I’ll never see you
Or hear your voice
Ever again
Your touch is a ghost
That haunts my awakening
Making me wish I could
Dream on forever
And live with the fantasy
That’s all that is left of you
It seemed like forever
You took in your dying
I wanted the end to come
I couldn’t stand watching you
Wither away
Now I’d take back
What little was left of you
Just to have you for one more day
And another after that
To hold your bony hand
To kiss your pale forehead
To hope against hope
That the light would come
Back on in your eyes
Melancholy seems
The best word to describe it
This mixture of sadness
Relief
And guilt over feeling suddenly free
And I want to escape
I want to get high
I don’t want to be here
Without you
I want to
I need to
Be somewhere else
Where everything’s not
A reminder of you
But life’s a reminder
Because of the way
You lived it
I look at the sky
And wonder about the wonder
You looked at it with
And wonder whether you
Would correct that last phrase
Because good sentences
Don’t end with prepositions
I even loved
The grammar nazi in you.